1,2,3,4 and counting

feb 3 2004 = the day we met.....

It's been over 4 years.........

yet being in the relationship has so much struggles......... sometimes i barely see progression in the relationship... we're fighting hard to maintain this relationship but sometimes it gets so mundane!

I was just telling BS today....

The first year....... cruise & honeymoon.... Passion and infatuation....

The second year........ you begin to discover his flaws and your impression of him sinks in...... but because of yout beilef that the relationship is going to work out....... you press in.........

The third year....... fight! quarrel! that's what we do most of the time....... both unwilling to compromise.......

The fourth year...... you realise that the only way to make the relationship work is by saying this two magic phrase, "Honey, I'm sorry." and "Thank you for your effort. I appreciate it." It's back to basics.

I don't know what to expect in the fifth year!

God! Help me! I've never gone so far in a relationship! Is it natural to feel afraid?

I'm having a hard time fighting temptations that are soooo strong! The guys who are attractive and still single are like before my eyes!

Sometimes I feel so tired in the relationship that I would love to take a time out to widen my social circle! I want a life!

But at the bottom of my heart....... I know that I still love him.........

Confusion.......