"Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more; it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.”
-Shakespeare
Woke up at 4.30am today, intending to start on my paper but was too sleepy so i decided to heck it.. Talked to hun on the phone till about 7am.. then I went to sleep.. Only woke up at 9am.. LATE!! LATE FOR CLASS!!
hehez..
I miss my hunny alot!!
Pacing myself is not easy. I realise that I tend to chiong things alot. I never know how to balance and pace myself.. I'm beginning to learn now and I'm struggling with it.. Oh well.. I always quote Uncle Fuji, "struggle hard, struggle well, never give up."
I can do it!! Yea!!
Found some cool outfits online...
I think I look good in gypsy clothes but I can't fit most of my clothes now.. have to go shop for some..
Anw.. I was searching for pirate costumes online for the YAF retreat and I found this website..
Lord, teach me to love you and put you first! Then I won't worry about other things! Worrying is tiring... Relying on my own strength makes it worse... Help me not to lose sight of you... Coz it seems so easy to... Help me to trust that you will work it all out in your time... Help to have the maturity to handle life's issues which can sometimes be so overwhelming!!! I need your strength... Especially when I have papers to hand in tomorrow and I haven't even started doing it... Today has been so draining... I need more time and more energy! I am sooo lack of it..
It is gonna take a miracle to finish my paper by tmr! Ah!
I'm gonna get some rest now and I'll wake up in a few hours to start on it...
The bus alights me at the stop It's waiting for me to get down It seems like a strange place Yea... strangely familiar Like I've been here before
I look at the rear view mirror of the bus There's no one at the driver's seat It's empty. How did I get here? I vaguely remember boarding this bus
The engine cools. I think this is it. It's my stop. Well, it looks pretty inviting. I think I'll be happy here.
Many years have passed now I am still at the same stop I have grown older The bus stop has changed It's no longer the rugged, shabby shelter I once resided in It has aged too and can now protect me from stormy weathers
Other buses have passed by and offered to take me elsewhere I never accepted those lifts Because I have learnt to love this place I made this my home, my sanctuary.
Well, all this didn't happen overnight. We have had our struggles. There were times of loneliness and despair When he didn't seem to care When we both resented each other He couldn't take my annoyance I hated his arrogance While times like these threatened to break us up What didn't kill our relationship only made it stronger
I have come to realize that It takes maturity to understand That pleasure brings along with it a little pain Success is not achieved without hardship
Still, as I reflect upon our journey together I cannot help but ponder Who was the bus driver? I never saw how he looked like. And I never saw the bus again.
How did he know where to alight me? Where did he disappear to that night?
There's no one to give me any answers But in my heart, I am grateful to the mysterious bus driver
Every bus takes you on a journey Every journey brings you to a stop Every bus driver knows the right one and I'm glad I found mine.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
She walks She talks She lifts her head She's a snob
Some things you just can't change Some things are just not worth explaining
Go ahead Assume
Do it.
Go ahead!
Do it!
It's all bottled within me now. All the hurts, all the insults, all the sarcasms. Yea. It feels great.
After you take it all out on me. I feel great. I do.
You hear me? I feel fantastic!
You don't You don't hear me Your head is too full or your thoughts Your brain too clouded by your own perceptions
Yea right. Save it.
Don't. Stop.
Don't do it.
Don't try to erase your guilt by treating me nice in the morning. It will not wipe away the tears I've cried the night before. It will not heal the hole in my heart caused by the words you said. It will not cleanse my sin my sin against you.
I close my eyes in the darkness. It gets darker. I play the songs sung by the man I love. It gets louder. I lay my head on my pillow It gets softer. I put my hands beside me It gets weaker. I muster enough strength to put it to my heart. The blood trickles. Down my fingers. It stains my hands. It drips on my bed. One drop at a time. It's bleeding.
The stone that the builders rejected Has become the Cornerstone Hallelujah
Ascribe greatness Ascribe greatness Ascribe greatness to the Rock so high
You are a sanctuary A shelter and a shade from the heat of the day You are a hiding place A tower and a refuge from the storm and the rain My rock and foundation You have become my salvation
references: Psalm 118:22, Matthew 21:42, Mark 12:10, Luke 20:17, Acts 4:11, 1 Peter 2:7
[Verse 1 (Twista)] I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks, Knowing the cops is hot when I’m on the block, And I Wish my brother would've made bail, So I won’t have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail, And I Wish that my grandmother wasn’t sick, Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick, And I (I wish) Wish my homies wouldn’t have to suffer, When the streets get the upper hand on us and we lose a brother, And I Wish I could go deep in the zone, And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song, And I (I wish) Wish I could teach a soul to fly, Take away the pain out your hands and help you hold them high, And I Wish my homie Butch was still alive And on the day of his death we had never took that ride, And I (I wish) Wish God could protect us from the wrong So that all the soldiers that were sent over seas come home and, uh, We will never break, though they devastate, we shall motivate, And we gotta pray, all we got is faith. Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day, The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain’t gotta cry today. Sit at the light so long, And then we gotta move straight forward, cause we fight so strong, So when right go wrong, Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life goes on!!! Let’s HOPE!
[Chorus (Faith Evans)] Cause I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, Take this music and use it Let it take you away, And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay. cause we hopeful
[Verse 2 (Twista)] I wish that you could show some love, Instead of hating so much when you see some other people coming up (I wish) I wish I could teach the world to sing, Watch the music and have ‘em tripping off the joy I bring, I wish that we can hold hands, Listen instead of dissing lessons from a grown man, And I (I wish) Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks Brand new shack and a lack that’s on dubs, And I Wish we could keep achieving wonders, See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish) And I hope all the kids eat, And don’t nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig) I hope them mothers stain’ strong, You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone, And I (I wish) Wish I could give every celly some commissary, And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly, And I Wish that DOC could scream again And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (I wish) Then one day they could speak again, I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN, I wish we could never get the blues, Wish I could bring back the people that died at E2 I wish that we could walk a path, stay doing the right thing Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game, Let’s HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans)] Cause I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, Take this music and use it Let it take you away, And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay. cause we hopeful
[Verse 3 (Twista)] Wish the earth wasn’t so apocalyptic, I try to spread my message to the world the best way that I can give it, We can make it, always be optimistic, If you don’t listen gotta live my life the best way that I can live it, I pray for justice when we go to court, Wish it was all good so the country never even went to war Why can’t we kick it and just get em on, And in the famous words of Mr. King “Why can’t we all just get along”, Or we can find a better way to shop and please, And I Hope we find a better way to cop a keys, And I Wish everybody would just stop and freeze, And ask way are we fulfilling these downfalls and these prophecies, You can be wrong if it’s you doubting, With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains, And only the heavenly father can ease the hurt, Just let it go and keep praying on your knees at church!! And let’s HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans) X2] Cause I’m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, Take this music and use it Let it take you away, And be hopeful (hopeful) and he’ll make a way I know it ain’t easy but that’s okay. cause we hopeful
Have been listening to it over and over again coz i think it's v meaningful and it aptly describes many ppl today... young and old... and this song brings a positive message to these people... that they're not alone.. and there's more to life than this!
That's just like him To wander off in the evergreen park Slowly searching For any sign of the ones he used to love He says he's got nothing left to live for (He says he's got nothing left) And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone There's more to this I know You can make it out You will live to tell
She's just like him Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed Shes searching for no one (but herself) Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is her And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone There is more to this I know You can make it out You will live to tell
You're not alone There is more to this i know You can make it out
(There is more to this)
We're not alone There is more to this i know You can make it out You will live to tell
(So tell me)
You're not alone There is more to this i know You can make it out You will live to tell
You're not alone You're not, your not alone
Saturday, June 21, 2008
"Friendships are a little like back yard gardens. We plan to tend to them. We just always seem to put it off till next week."
Are you lonesome tonight, Do you miss me tonight? Are you sorry we drifted apart? Does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day When I kissed you and called you sweetheart? Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare? Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there? Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again? Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?
I wonder if you're lonesome tonight You know someone said that the worlds a stage And each must play a part. Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart. Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange And why Ill never know. Honey, you lied when you said you loved me And I had no cause to doubt you. But Id rather go on hearing your lies Than go on living without you. Now the stage is bare and Im standing there With emptiness all around And if you wont come back to me Then make them bring the curtain down.
Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again? Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?
Slept @ 5 plus the night before.. or should I say.. in the morning.. So i was still very tired when I woke up around 10. Couldn't sleep after that. Just couldn't. My eyes were puffy because of the crying the night before. (in the words of Aquamarine, I was leaking :P)
Was humming the tune "But it's not so bad You're only the best I ever had You don't want me back You're just the best I ever had" Wasn't emo-ing or anything. It just got stuck in my head the whole day.
Well, I was glad that I bought my parents lunch. Good time to catch up with dad too coz he was away for more than a week. I bet mum missed him alot. Haha... Good surprise dad, especially on mum's bdae.
The afternoon was spent at ting's place. Dad, Mum and I stood outside the gate with the lighted cake and sang the happy birthday song, only to find out when Zhi Wei walked out that my aunt wasn't in! haha... he said "you all sang very well but the birthday girl is not at home!". After we went in, we didn't know she had mock exam in her room so mum and i were quite noisy outside, singing and playing the piano. Ting came out and asked us to keep the volume down. SORRY ting!!
Had some time to spare before my aunt and uncle came home (they were shopping!). So my parents sent me to pick up the car. (did i mention that i hit another guy's car?)
When I came back, my parents decided to catch Get Smart @ 7pm, so I joined ting's family for dinner. When I was about to leave ting's place around 9 plus, Aunty Vinnie and family came over! Then Ansel asked for my dad so dad and mum dropped by again after their movie.
hmm..
Reached home around midnight. Tried to finish up "The Game Plan" but got interrupted coz Jeremy was feeling emo. He wanted to talk.
So we chatted for a while. Thank God for him coz I realised that I needed some company too. Glad you felt better after talking! Don't emo alone Jeremy! Easties should help each other! hehehehe...
Was just about to do my stuff when Eugene wanted to talk. So I called him. Had a great time catching up. This is probably the first time we talked since he left church. Haha... he's an east-ie too!
I need supper kakis in the east coz I always have nobody to go out with here! All my pals are in the west!
Owells..
It was an emo night..
Finally ended the conversation at 3am, took a shower and wasn't in the mood to continue my show..
Feeling very emo tonight Haven't felt this way in a while haha which means I haven't written for a while
The door of my toilet is spoilt I have to place the laundry basket behind it just to keep it close Oh bother.
It's past midnight. 16 June - Happy Birthday to Uncle Fred!
Oh wells...save the well wishes for tonight. Let's back track to 15 June, Sunday.
Wore my "Happy" shirt for the second time today Had trouble finding the right bottoms to wear this morning Didn't want to wear skinnys All my other pants were out of shape (too loose) Didn't think the shirt would match any of my skirts Had 5mins to decide Decide deniece! I finally pulled out a baggy dress pants to wear (Ruqin says it's 'aunty-like') Wanted to change out of it after service But there was no time to pick another pants
So service went well Was surprised to see Eunice and her family Managed to fix a date with her this week to catch up! She's been MIA-ing!
I thought that youth went pretty well too (Sorry for the drag! Was I long-winded?) Prepared 2 points to share with everyone But 2 points became 30 mins! Bad planning deniece... (aiyo!)
*grins*
Went Holland to shop for bdae prezzies Together with Jasmine, Vanessa and Valerie (a new friend :) People I needed to buy presents for:
1) Father's Day 15 Jun 2) Uncle Fred's Bdae 16 Jun 3) LiYan's Bdae 17 Jun 4) Mum's Bdae 19 Jun 5) Dad's Sis Bdae 19 Jun 6) Dad's Bdae 28 Jun
Only managed to buy 2 prezzies, the 19 Juners.
The shopping continues tmr. Amanda and I are planning to shop before her tuition! Hooray! I wanna take lots of pictures with her Coz it's the first time I'm taking her out! Love you E-P-B!
hun. When was the last time i felt this way about anyone? Just the thought of you puts a smile on my face My heart beats faster when you walk towards me I feel my cheeks blush when our eyes meet Time seems to stop for that brief moment when you hold me I do not want to be disturbed Not when I'm with you Every thing else can wait
Call me crazy -- Talking on the phone at ungodly hours... Constantly hanging out till late... Reaching home at midnight almost 4 days a week... Leaving the house even before any one is awake... Switching from Starhub to M1 out of the blue... Facebook-ing instead of listening to lectures... 'Chiong-ing' my guitar like I've never done before... Soaring handphone bills... Eating CHEESE?! and the list goes on . . . Isn't this how falling in love is? So go ahead, Call me crazy, illogical, irrational, not knowing my priorities, WHATEVER!!!! I'm in love. Let me be. Let me linger a little longer. For time waits for no man. If time is given, then carpe diem
When was the last time YOU felt like that? Maybe it's time for YOU to have a taste of what falling in love is.
2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake, "Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?, I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season" Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes Like they have any right at all to criticize, Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason 'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button, girl. So cradle your head in your hands And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss "Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist, "Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year." Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while, But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles, Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it. Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable, And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button, boys, So cradle your head in your hands, And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe There's a light at each end of this tunnel, You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again If you only try turning around. 2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me, Threatening the life it belongs to And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud And I know that you'll use them, however you want to But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable, And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button now Sing it if you understand. and breathe, just breathe woah breathe, just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe.
I've searched the dictionary but m still confused about how to use this word!
Flack
-noun
1.
a slick spokesperson who can turn any criticism to the advantage of their employer [syn: flak catcher]
2.
intense adverse criticism; "Clinton directed his fire at the Republican Party"; "the government has come under attack"; "don't give me any flak" [syn: fire]
3.
artillery designed to shoot upward at airplanes [syn: antiaircraft]
If u guys missed it earlier, here's the song Ruqin wrote and sang just now @ SAC. Music & Lyrics by Qang
so it begins the beating of your heart on 2nd june of the past don't you know its just the start
your little eyes comprehends the world through the thoughts of a little girl
as you grew up boys and toys would come life never seemed so fun to love and hurt seemed to be one
and now, you take a look at the scenes that only come from what 21 brings a life 21 years have been And we're right here to witness a life that God has used within us here we are to say, happy happy birthday
so here you are the best times of your years with confidence and yet with fear you watch your childhood disappear.
but here we are standing right beside you those who love you and know that its true cos we'll be needing you too
--------------------------------------------------------- From Deniece:
Thanks for the song babe. Now, I'm able to appreciate its character.. hehe.. I think that the lyrics are really meaningful as it summarizes very well how things have changed over the years for me.. I feel the song and I'm very touched. I appreciate it babe.
There is only one devotion, to God.
My belief, strong and unmovable.
I believe in God, the only creator of the universe, the only creator of you and me. Through God, all things hold together.
But the Godhead does not only consist of one person, he shares a divine relationship with His son, Jesus Christ, whom he sent to die for us and His Spirit, who is the paraclete to all mankind.
If there's one thing i want to share with everyone i know, that is the good news.
Christ did it, we receive it.
There is nothing greater in this world than knowing his love for us.
My mission: Making-a-Difference-1-on-1
"Though I am chosen of Thee and honoured by a high and holy calling, let me never forget that I am but a man of dust and ashes, a man with all the natural faults an passions that plague the race of men, I pray Thee, therefore, my Lord and Redeemer, save me from myself and from all the injuries I may do myself while trying to be a blessing to others. Fill me with Thy power by the Holy Spirit, and I will go in Thy strength and tell of Thy righteousness, even Thine only, I will spread abroad the message of redeeming love while my normal powers endure."
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