To School.
I'm a student again, back in school I mean. It feels.. so humbling.. away from the bedazzled glitz and glamour of the stage.. away from all the titles and authorities.. just plain me..
But, this time.. different.
I'm reading through a textbook now. It's been ages since I last touched one. I'm going to give my best, even though no one is with me!
Next Term's Modules:
1) Introduction To Psychology
2) Music Appreciation
There's so much one can say
to Him when he chooses to go the other way
A "sorry, please forgive me," he prays
"Let this guilt be washed away
She told him she had reached home
They talked about it over the phone
Just one line, no more compromise
Sometimes you need to sacrifice
Take it to the extreme
Or take nothing at all
There's no stopping halfway
If you do then you gotta pay
"You're not prepared to make sacrifices."
We spent a few hours talking about serious stuff yesterday. Well, it was about my life plans. Suddenly, the girl I once was - full of hope, full of purpose, full of vision - disappeared. I don't know where to go.
Half-way through the conversation, I brought up the topic of marriage. I think I shouldn't have. I don't know why I did. That's when he said, "you're not prepared to make sacrifices." I'm not putting this into context. But anyway, I've removed my 5 year goal under my 'updates' section. We're putting off marriage plans till he gets his degree which could be in 4-8 years time. He says, if we can get married in 6 years, we'd b very lucky.
Sigh. It's not that I really want to get married. I mean, I'm really content with the way things are. Maybe marriage might screw things up. I don't know. I just want to have a good attitude towards this whole issue. The last thing I want is to pressurize him into it. It's a big decision we have to make and I'm not sure I'm even prepared for it, or whether I'll be ready 10 years down the road. I guess, education and career seem to matter now. Without a degree, I won't be able to do alot of things. And if I don't start thinking about my career paths, I'm going to be headed no where. I pray that when school starts, I'll at least be more certain about all these stuff.
Sometimes, you gotta make sacrifices. As PGL put it this week, "There is no victory without sacrifice."
We'll be taking the next few years to stabilize ourselves in the two areas. We both want to be financially stable before rushing into something we're not prepared for.
THE VISION SHALL BE REVIVED SOME DAY IN THE FUTURE...
Why are there so man restrictions!!!!
I've been planning a holiday for so long!!!!
But it never works out!!!
It's either the wrong people or the wrong place or the wrong budget!!!!! WTH!
From last year, I've been wanting to go overseas..... why can't i just go alone! I'm fine with going alone! I mean... WTH.
WTH.
It's so difficult to plan a holiday with your friends man. Everyone's busy. The ones that are not busy have already got their holiday plans with other people. Who am I left with? Myself. So it makes sense to just go away by myself!
WTH.
I really just wanna be alone.
