French Maid

If you follow my entries, you'll probably know that I LOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEEE dressing up... I cannot tell you how much I love going to parties, especially theme parties... I am super onz about dressing up...

This year, most of my friends celebrate their 21st and there have been many who try to spice up the party with themes!

Gwen's party was 'back to old school'.. so we wore school uniforms.

Evan's party was 'secret garden'.. so we had to wear something with floral prints. I wore my oversized cheongsam. haha.. well.. I'm glad I just altered it, now it fits me well.. (no pictures for this... But I'll upload some pictures of Mrs. Wong in the cheongsam after the production tomorrow!)

Aside from birthdays, I went for BC's YAF retreat and they made everyone dress up as pirates. I rented a corset from No.1 Costume Shop to match my pants and heels.

During our own church camp, the committee went along with a Hawaiian theme, so we had to wear something or that sort. Haha, for that, I wore my Hawaiian print bikini which nobody saw of course. LOL. I had a racerback tank over it with my grey shorts from FOX.

(I was sick and cold that day, so I put on a Jacket.. told ya.. everyone else was dressed to kill.. so was I.. It's just hidden that's all :P)

So, why bring this up?

Well, Elaine's bdae is next week and her theme is apparently 'RETRO DISCO SUPERSTAR'! I think it's kinda confusing because I don't know what it means. Blame it on my lousy english. But I do have a look in mind that I wanna try to pull off..

(anyone has a pink plastic dress that I can borrow or buy? *winks*)

Having said all that, I'm coming to my main point. Note the title of my entry, "French Maid". I wonder... Will anyone set that as a theme for a party? It's a playful and kinky one.. hehe.. but, "that's the way... I like it.." I just placed a bid on ebay for a French Maid dress. I'm going to buy it!

(Unfortunately, this piece costs $50+... cannot afford.. cute right?)

There's something about him...

He's hot, he's spicy, he's tangy, he's sexy and feisty... mm... start with a nibble from the top and work your way down to the end... lick it to savour its taste and chew on it to feel its juice ooze out in your mouth... oOoo... He makes me wet with pleasure as I open up for him to enter and let him slide his way down the narrow passage.. I can't help but go, "Ahhh... ooOhh... Yes! Yes! Yes!... Give me more! Give me more!"

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Cavalier

–noun
1.a horseman, esp. a mounted soldier; knight.
2.one having the spirit or bearing of a knight; a courtly gentleman; gallant.
3.a man escorting a woman or acting as her partner in dancing.
4.(initial capital letter) an adherent of Charles I of England in his contest with Parliament.

–adjective
5.haughty, disdainful, or supercilious: an arrogant and cavalier attitude toward others.
6.offhand or unceremonious: The very dignified officials were confused by his cavalier manner.
7.(initial capital letter) of or pertaining to the Cavaliers.
8.(initial capital letter) of, pertaining to, or characteristic of the Cavalier poets or their work.

–verb (used without object)
9.to play the cavalier.
10.to be haughty or domineering.

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I've been drinking this once a day since last thursday when I bought it from aunty Just. :) It's the first time I really trying products and supplements. I never thought that I'd ever buy into these nonsense, but I heard about its results so I decided to give it a try. It's much more convenient than detoxing the coffee enema way... haha...

Jack tried this and said that its effects are really good too. Well, it's my 5th day. I've increased my intake from 1/2 a spoonful to 1, hopefully I'll see the results soon...

Have been reading about it on forums and blogs too... I think it's pretty trustable...

"Do not worry...."

Hun got his enlistment letter today. I'm having mixed feelings about him going in. On one hand, I'm glad that he finally knows when he's going in, so things are more certain for him. The earlier he goes in, the earlier he will ORD, so it's good too :)

But there's just so much fear and worry within me. Hun knows. He asked me about it today and I just broke down and cried before I could say anything. We talked about it and he assured me that I'll be fine.

"Pray for me," he said.

He's right. Prayer will help me keep focus on the right things. As I learn to surrender this burden to Him, I know that He will make it light! Jesus, you're my certainty! Help me to fix my eyes on you!

I need my "do not fear" scriptures! One for every day!

Today's bible study verse:

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
-Matthew 11:28-30

Uncle Fuji was explaining to me about how the oxen are trained in Japan. They will tie the tails of the pair of oxen together and when the oxen try to go their own way, they will end up fighting because they are stuck to each other. The stronger one would win and the weaker one would submit to the leadership of the stronger ox when they are both yoked together.

It's just like Christ and us. He invites us to be yoked together with him, to be led by him as he bears our burden and makes it light for us.

My Jesus, I love Thee, I know Thou art mine;
For Thee all the follies of sin I resign;
My gracious Redeemer, my Savior art Thou;
If ever I love Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.

I love Thee because Thou hast first loved me,
And purchased my pardon on Calvary’s tree;
I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow;
(Oh my saviour) If ever I love Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.

In mansions of glory and endless delight,
I’ll ever adore Thee in heaven so bright;
I’ll sing with the glittering crown on my brow,
If ever I love Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.

There's a war going on inside each of us
A battle only we can fight
It changes us
It makes us who we are
Choose to win
Choose to live
Choose today

She started out right
Black was black and white was white
But that changed in one day
When black and white turned grey

The thrill behind the masquerade
She never felt this way before
But all these escapades
always left her wanting more

She's looking for love
wherever she can find it
She craves the attention
Because she doesn't get it
There's no way out
She doesn't know it
Soon she's gonna be over
if nobody hears her

The man who shared her bed
Left her yesterday
Distraught, she sought comfort
At the cathedral she prayed

There she met a girl
She never felt this way before
But this short lived fairy tale
Brought her misery once more

I like this picture :) haha... Ya Kun!

Give me desire
Give me hope
Give me the longings of a 21-year old
Give me intelligence
Give me beauty
Give me joy
Give me patience
Give me something to fill the void inside........

It never seems to end................
The pain, the hurt, the sorrow, the frustration, the chains that bind me, the agony, the misery, the cries.................... they never stop.................... they never stop................. the never stop................

I'm drying out..........................
I wanna fade away..................
I wanna rest.............................
I wanna rest.............................

Give me peace.

I shut my eyes..........................................................................................................................................
A little sleep,
A little slumber,
She sleeps away the tears and the heartache
She sleeps it all away
She puts her sword down
Lets down all her defenses
The life of a tiny scratch on the rope has come to an end
In her dreams,
She chooses to remain
never to awake again...........

"Do You wanna go to the place they call 'Freedom'..."
Is there such a place?
The song continues to play
as I plow through my work for the day
Seriously, screw the idea of freedom.
Don't mind my language, but
It's just not a practical thing.
How can anyone have freedom?
One man's freedom is founded on another man's misery
My definition of freedom might not be yours, you see.

The idea of freedom is foolish
If freedom is the ability to do what you like
Then you're just gratifying yourself
That makes you selfish

Can one really attain liberty?

Everyday, your life is decided by the people living with you
"Do this..."
"Don't do that..."
"Take a pill," she would say to me when I'm ill
I'd be a rebel if I refuse.

Teachers, the Government, Authorities...
Your voice is silenced.
Your will at their command.

Even the bible talks about predestination.

So what's freedom?
The absence of control?
If it is, then it's not at all.

"The penny rolls along the pavement and onto the streets, following the dotted lines that divide the lanes, wearing out slowly as the journey gets arduous, it disappears into the horizon..."

When Did You Fall

Chris Rice - When Did You Fall
From the album Amusing

You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise

Chorus:
When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise

Chorus:

Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free

Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?

VBS

Last Friday, we had Video Bible Study in church. I was very blessed by the message. Wayne Cordeiro spoke on doing church as a team but what spoke to my heart was his personal story. He was invited to sing one of his songs at a seminar but because he was so nervous, he forgot the words and by the time he actually finished to song, he felt so horrible, he wanted to give up bible school altogether. He felt that if he couldn't even do the song well he definitely was not cut out to be a pastor. But immediately after his performance, the president of the organisation came up to him and encouraged him. The man said, "there have been many times I wanted to quit. But now, whenever I think about quitting, I'll always remember that young bible school student who struggled through his song and never gave up."

I guess for me, being a young person starting out in ministry is not easy. There are many things that I have to learn that are beyond skills alone. It's a whole lifestyle change. "It comes with the job," I say. A lot of times I find myself having to fight negative thoughts and overcome them - thoughts of inferiority, thoughts of inadequacy. It's worse when you have people saying to you that you're too young or that you're incapable.

But, like that man, whenever I have thoughts about quitting, I'll be reminded of Pastor Wayne's victory! I must finish well!

Anyway, here's another of his messages that I enjoyed. It's entitled: The Power of A Blessing.
(click!)

Be blessed!

JB

Boo! Didn't have the time to take any pictures of the trip :(

Vanessa and I went to JB for makan just now. I must say, it isn't as scary as I thought it would be. All the jitters about how dangerous it is for two girls to drive alone across the causeway into JB, they are but groundless theories to me!!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha... God has not given me a spirit of fear!!!!!! Oh yea! (just kidding la... I know that there's still truth behind it)

Anyway, we made it in and out, alive and safe. Thanks to Pastor Kel of course.

He brought us to a local coffee shop behind Hyatt Hotel. Vanessa and I had Kway Teow Soup and 2 Ramly burgers that we bought from the roadside stall across.

The few hours went by so quickly as we talked. May be it's because we haven't met in a while so there was a lot of 'updating' to do. hehe.. or catching up you might call it.

After the dinner/supper, we went to SHELL to top up petrol. Some people there were so kiasu, they shaked their vehicle so violently just to get that extra litre of petrol in. LOL. It was a new experience for me as I learnt how to DIY :P *so BLUR* hehe.. You don't have to DIY in Singapore mar..

The jam was pretty bad when we came into JB but going out was alright. I sent Van home and we chatted for a while below her block. I needed to rest for a while because I wasn't feeling well. Felt like vomitting and my cramps were acting up too... that's what you get for being a girl.

hmm.. I hope that I'll be well tomorrow! Time to get some rest!

Goodnight blog.

Mrs. Wong

I met up with Nat last week to discuss about her new play "Rama and The Mixed Up Washing." She asked me if I was interested to help since I'm quite free now so we talked about it more and she cast me as Mrs. Wong, the rich 'tai tai' who lives in the house of Wong, the one with a white verandah and the banyan tree! How fun!

Haha, today was the first rehearsal. It was great getting to know the other people involved in the play. We went through my lines too. What I need now is to look for a cheongsam. But then again, I might not spend the money to buy.. I think I'll just alter mine coz it's loose.

Well, the only thing I think I dread is the travelling. It takes me 2 hours to get to NIE from my place. Boo! Well, at least I have angel to accompany me after rehearsals. hehe..

All I Want Is You

Haha... I fell in love with this silly song when I was at Wala yesterday with SHITTY. A guy from Perth came to publicize his album and he sang a cover of this song "All I Want Is You" taken from the movie JUNO. I told Ru that I want him to sing this song when he proposes to me.. hehe.. :X

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

Andrew Lum & New Asia

"whoo!!!" The crowd cheered as they wrapped up their set with their own version of Sukiyaki.

Hun and I went to Jazz by the Beach at Sentosa yesterday. We got a table and had a lovely dinner with the accompaniment of live music by Andrew Lum and New Asia. hmm... Their music is kinda like fusion. They have a Erhu musician as part of their band. Very interesting.. go have a listen!

Check them out at http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=197938331

The pieces they played yesterday included
-Flowing in Seasons
-Matter of Time
-Anticipation
-Poison
-Besame Mucho
-Sukiyaki

Jalan Kayu Virginity Lost!

We look like we're in heaven because the lighting for this picture is over exposed.

Well, it's my first time to Jalan Kayu and the first time I ate Chicken Murtabak.

I'm glad I have a picture to remember this eventful supper time with my friends.

Good fellowship and good food. Take me there again!

Looking forward to our next big group supper.

*sigh* to what has become of my school... Times are different now... Tts why it's so important to maintain the friendships and be there for each other or else it's gonna get harder to survive alone.

Time to say goodnight.

"Above all else, guard your heart..."

In her PINK nightie, she writes about the events that happened today...

The highlight of my day was talking to Ruqin. Though I attended various meetings today and met up with many people, somehow, the time spent with them was not substantial enough for a conversation to develop.

I was almost half-dead during dinner and couldn't contribute much to the conversation. My brain just froze, like stopped.

Well, I must admit that part of the reason was that I missed ru. Havent seen him in two days. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I don't think I'll get a chance to see him in the next few days either. I need more 'pak tor' time!

Hehez.. anyway, I rushed home after sending Vanessa back. Managed to catch ru while he's still awake. We had a gd chat :) I missed that.

I hope that we'll get the opportunity to meet soon.

Revisit your fears, confront them, overcome them. But NEVER run away from them.

Worthlessness, helplessness and hopelessness:

The three ingredients of depression

STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had lunch with Row today. Met her at 12 and only left PS at about 5pm... Had a gd talk but there's alot for me to reflect and think about.

I'm checking my schedule this week and I'm totally booked till Sunday. I hope I'll be able to steal some time to rest.

I can't sleep because so many thoughts are in my head. I wanted to talk to cheryl but she was busy. When she called me back, I was busy. No one to share these thoughts with... I need to get it out soon... But who do I tell?

I'm back on facebook for a specific reason. I've got to battle temptations now. Self control is the name of the game. If all else fails, I'll be off facebook within the next week. Don't want it to screw up my life again.

I have a dinner appt tmr but I have a facial at 3pm. Oh bother, I'm going to look terrible.

Poochie's trying not to bark when he sees other dogs. That's an improvement.

I'm still having problems sleeping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I have to be up tmr morning at 7. That leaves me with less that 6 hours of sleep.

I miss playing my guitar. It's missing a string so I cannot play it. It's too late to be jamming on my keyboards now. I need to get the missing string ASAP.

My lappie's still with the bloody idiot. The lady is going to call me tomorrow to update me she says.

I need to go to SIMLIM to format the 2 ext HDs. It's driving me mad because I keep forgetting to do it. And one of them is Vanessa's.

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