Love and Fear

I'm tired after the activities of today
But I cannot sleep
Perhaps I'm choosing not to

Listening to the songs you sent me yesterday
Thinking about our time together
Trying to put my thoughts into words

hmm..

I remember writing about fear
And yes,
I am still afraid of many things

For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

I'm afraid of falling too deep
Like I did before
Yet I know that this time it's different
Like it was before

I'm afraid of expressing my love fully
Because I know that when I do
I go all out
And I've come to realize that through the years
It can be both good and bad
I would give my 100 percent in pleasing the guy I love
at the same time I become 100 percent possessive
As I gave him all of myself
I wanted him all for myself
That wasn't love
That was insecurity

So what's love then?
Coz I'm afraid to love you
The deeper I fall for you
The more I find that I'm losing myself

Ah! But you see,

There's a paradox.

Perfect love casts out all fear.

If our love is real, then there shouldn't be any fear.

And we'll only know if our love is real
When it's being tested over time.
Just like you said
Since we both believe that God brought us together
Are we able to believe that He will keep us together?
As long as we don't give up on Him
I know that He will not give up on us