PsALm 25

To You, O Lord, I life up my soul
O my God, I trust in You
Let me not be ashamed
Let not my enemies triumph over me.
Indeed, let no one who waits on You be ashamed
Let those be ashamed who deal treacherously without cause

Show me Your ways, O Lord
Teach me Your paths.
Lead me in Your truth and teach me,
For You are the God of my salvation
On You I wait all the day.

Remember, O Lord, your tender mercies and Your lovingkindness
For they are from of old.
Do not remember the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions
According to Your mercy remember me
For Your goodness’ sake, O Lord

Good and upright is he Lord
Therefore He teaches sinners in the way
The humble He guides in ustice
And the humble He teaches His way
All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth,
To such as keep His covenant and His testimonies
For Your name’s sake, O Lord
Pardon my iniquity, for it is great

Who is the man that fears the Lord
Him shall He teach in the way He chooses
He himself shall dwell in prosperity
And his descendants shall inherit the earth
The secret of the Lord is with those who fear Him
And He will show them His covenant
My eyes are ever toward the Lord
For He shall pluck my feet out of the net

Turn Yourself to me, and have mercy on me
For I am desolate and afflicted
The troubles of my heart have enlarged
Bring me out of my distress!
Look on my affliction and my pain
And forgive all my sins
Consider my enemies, for they are many
And they hate me with cruel hatred
Keep my soul and deliver me
Let me not be ashamed, for I put my trust in you
Let integrity and uprightness preserve me
For I wait for You

Redeem Israel O God out of all their troubles




Let no one who waits on You be ashamed………
Indeed Lord, help me, when I feel that everyone’s expectations of me are too hard for me to handle… when I feel the pressure to conform to people’s idea of how I should be…Lord, I wait on You… please teach me… Show me Your ways… I wouldn’t know what to write for my paper… Lord… please… help me to feel that it’s not too difficult to do… help me to know that I can only do this with your strength… by your strength… when I feel that I am helpless then You O Lord can show yourself strong…

To thE LiMs

Hey Cheryl, Michelle, Gracie, Tracie,
As I was hearing about what happened Sunday morning, the Lord reminded me of this passage and I think I ought to share it with you all. Here, David complains to God about his plight and how he almost lost his focus and direction because of all the persecution and oppression he felt. But the key here is in verse 17. It was in the sanctuary that he met with God and he was assured of God’s love and protection over him. He knew that God was with him and he started praising God. Where is your sanctuary? It need not be a church. But I am glad that you all chose to come to church today and I hope that you encountered God in a way like never before. The road ahead is going to be even tougher and more uncertain. As long as we keep praying for your father, the devil is going to try all means to create disunity and chaos within the family. But whenever in doubt, remember to return to the place where you will remember of God’s promises for you and your family. I have been praying for your dad and will continue to. Do not give up on God but stand strong! Go to your sanctuary daily and seek Him and I pray that you all will emerge victorious and not victims of the enemy. And one day, we shall all see your dad come to know the Lord. God bless You.

A WatCh NiGhT SerViCe RefLeCtiOn

"Watch me," he told them. "Follow my lead. When I get to the edge of the camp, do exactly as I do. Judges 7:17

Camp  signifying preparing for battle. How many times in my life.. have I felt that life was just like a battle ground. At battle between god and evil. The spiritual and natural, wanting to do the things of God and fighting against doing the things of the world. The bible says clearly that one man cannot serve two masters. If I am friends with the world, I am an enemy with God. Life is a constant battle, without life’s manual, it will only end me up with chaos and more chaos… just like ball of string all entangled, unidentifiable which is the head which is the tail.
Life. A battle ground… between obeying the voice of God in my heart and obeying my parents. Many times they try to find what’s best for me. But what about if God is bringing me through a test? Putting me in hot soup so that I can learn how to depend on God in trying times? And my parents are trying to prevent me from getting into that hot soup? I’m not trying to say that I can hear God’s voice clearer than them. Of course, I can’t say that I’m more spiritual than them in any way. It’s just an everyday battle in my life..

At the edge of  at the brink of. An edge is when you’re about to fall over. The decision you make at this point is very crucial. Because you can’t see what’s beyond the edge, you have to decide which way to go. Being at an edge is very dangerous. So… is it turning back? Or trusting God? Brother Fuji has been an inspiration to me. He told me once that he told his camper when they came up to the altar to be prayed for. He said, “coming up here is very dangerous.” When you decide to let go and let God, he will do anything he wants with YOU. Are you sure you want to take that step? Similarly, being at the edge is very dangerous. God will promise to lift you up but that doesn’t mean when he puts you at a higher or lower platform, there’s going to be less edges, in fact, there’s going to be more.
What are the edges in my life this year? Definitely I need to thank God for seeing ben and I through another year. There has been many times when I said to myself, “ok. That’s enough. No more.” But I chose to trust God, and we id go through more rough patches but God brought us true and the relationship became richer.
I thank God also for seeing me through the first full time semester of TCA. The edge for me was to decide whether I should continue to stay in NTU or switch to bible school and I felt God’s prompting and leading so I chose to go full time and I have seen ever since, growth in my spiritual life and have learnt so much more about youths and my own calling. Through writing the papers, although tough, I learnt that I could depend on Him. Without God really, I couldn’t do it.

When I get to  I realize that Gideon didn’t say IF I get to. He was certain. He knew he would have to face the enemy with the little men that he has. He said “When”. We will have our enemies to face. Everyday BEHIND ENEMY LINES.

The word I want to emphasize here however is this..

“Watch me”  Today’s going to be watch night service. But the question is, who are we watching? Why are we watching? And even, What are we watching?
Watching is sensory. What did Gideon say here? He said, watch ME. Gideon is the leader of his army. Who is our leader? Who is my leader? Tonight is a time to readjust my focus back to God. After the spiritual high at the camp and hearing God’s voice, my sine curve went down again. No quiet moments with God anymore. It was all fun and play. Lord, I want to watch YOU tonight. YOU are the star of my life. I wanna get closer Lord, so much closer, Lord to thee. I wanto “Follow Your Lead” and in every situation of my life, “do exactly as [YOU would] do.