TORMENT. NUMB MY PAIN.

i guess u'll feel like this once in a while... the word is... EMO...

Jovian said guys don't cry, they just wear shirts with the word EMO on it.. haha... sounds like someone i know..

Newae.. it's one of those days for me..

Boston Legal Season 5, EP 10 started me on this emotional roll... Jerry expressed his feelings for Katie. She doesn't know how to respond. Carl proposes to Shirley and she accepts. Danny's disappointed. The firm goes bankrupt.

It's bizarre how this season ends... It seems to be a built up of events for the next season...

It reminded me of hun.. I guess because of all the relationship bits...

So.. I'm emo.

I don't need to talk to anyone.. I just wanna rest.. I'm tired.. but I can't.. the pain is killing me.. I refuse to take painkillers!

grrr.... I'm glad that it's only an extraction...

I miss hun...

"it's gonna be alright in the morning..."

I just said goodnight to Jovy... am turning in now...

a tune of sorts
gah.

dun feel gd tonight.
it's nuttin' to do with the tooth.
nuttin' to do with anyone.
just dun feelz gd.
ya understand?

an unfinished tune
lala..

went to my piano and started with
'can't take my eyes of you'
managed to figure that one out.
then my emotions carried me to
'moon river'
i kept playing that one.
i did.
i told elaine.
but i played out another melody
a chord progression of fourths, fifths, thirds and sixes,
then to the minor fourth...
the minor fourth...
i lingered there abit longer...
i can't finish it...

the melody starts out sweet
not like the beginning of love
but just the sweetness of romance
it's like pastel pink
the minor fourth brings it to another level
a deeper longing
for each other
where it takes the simple small talk furthur
just a little
maybe it ends with the holding of hands
maybe it ends with a peck on the cheek
maybe it ends with both of them gazing at each other
maybe it ends just there -
the closing is open (that's an irony)

since i can't speak,
this is all i can do now.

Time is passing so slowly...

i miss u hun.