fRienDz

No heaven or earth can take the place of you beside me... No matter how we run or we hide... love penetrates...

friends.........

when i was in primary school i used to have my own clique of friends....... but we were not exclusive.... the whole class were friends........ some closer some not so......... but we were all friends... mutually friends...

when i went to secondary school........ my social circle expanded... i always had some one to hang out with... either at school... in church... or anytime... just make a phone call to my ourside friends.. they were always there whenever....

when i went to JC...... my social circle change........ but i still knew alot of peple....... but not many of them i would count as friends.....

Now... in Bible school.......... i still have a wide social network.............. but my circle of friends..... smaller than before....... close friends............ maybe 2 or 3? they change from time to time... but the numbers don't change much........

when i am married....... i'll probably only have one friend......... my husband...........

all the years..... of going through emotions...... turmoil...... fitting into different groups of friends...... learning from them...... learning more about myself.......

there will still be this emptiness in me........ a time when after all the commotion dies...... i'm alone....... by myself......... in my room.......... knowing that every one else around me is having the time of their lives.... but me? just hanging out with myself...... and God perhaps.........

You know.......... joyce meyer said this before....... you got to learn to love yourself..... because you're going to live with yourself....... you can't get rid of yourself....... you need to love yourself... Since you cant ever leave yourself.... you might as well accept it and learn to love it.......

I think i'll go and watch some tvee now.......

tata..........

Love ya babes........ (you know..... sometimes i just love hanging out with people who are mmore introvert than extrovert... because they're the ones who will stick by you........ and the ones who are usually the most sincere...........)