hey.. know what i realized... it's been more than a month since i updated...
actually having a blog is pretty cool...
with all the gossip and backstabbing going around when you're this age.. it's hard to even keep a secret.. when u tell something to someone.. you realise that 10 other ppl know about it but they're just keeping mum
what's it with this world and their mouths anyways..
well at least that i have a blog.. i can blog all i want.. say what i want to say... and no one knows.. (or at least i think)

So.. a month has passed.. i've almost completed my papers.. terms over.. exam's over.. but life still sucks.. y do i say that.. coz the only constant thing in this world is... (and every one says).. CHANGE!.. so as climates and seasons change, so do people..

humans... people.. they are the hardest thing to deal with on planet EARTH.. it's hard even to talk sense into them.. well.. not that i'ma genius or sth..

i feel that i'm messing up my life at this point.. there's sos much to decide on.. so many ppl to please... misundersandings upon misunderstandings.. i'm meeting up with so many people and getting involved in so many things that i can't even stop and think who and what's most important to me..

Even my parents think negative now..

It seems as if there are so few ppl there for me.. or m i just too caught up and wasting my time and energy on ppl who won't even care a thing if i'm in trouble?

God, you put ppl into my path.. of course i know it's to mould and build me.. i think you're trying to accelerate it a bit too fast.. haha.. i duno.. it seems like everything is just coming into my life and messing it up so quickly.. before i even clear up the previous mess.. i get myself into another one.. oh well... i just have to work doubly hard and doubly fast..

Clubbing.. right or wrong?

Sometimes.. i just feel that Christians are the ones who judge the most.. coz we have the Bible and we think we are all holy boly roly poly.. that everyone else is wrong.. isn't that judging? i mean.. who are we to say that we're right in the first place?

The bible talks about liberty! not oppression!

i just thought about it today.. if i want to be a successful youth pastor.. i cannot only minister to people whom i like.. or people who are easy to minister to.. or people of a certain characteristic.. i mean.. yea.. there will b certainly strengths in my ministry for example.. i more effective in reaching out to a certain people perhaps.. but i have to even deal with bigger issues.. times are changing and so has the church got to change..

i mean.. Christianity or true conversion is ultimately just about a change of allegience and by following His word.. the Holy Spirit convicts our sinful nature and transformation begins in our lives... but why do some people do it the other way round? - try to get people to change their lifestyle and fit into the 'Christian' culture... THERE IS NO CHRISTIAN CULTURE!! JESUS IS A INTERNATIONAL, INTERCULTURAL GOD!!