My DisCipLe...

havent been writing for a while but i was just very challenged by what Lindy told me to chart my disciple's spiritual growth...

went to visit her (i won't use her name for confidentiality purposes)..

She's really very different from who she is in church.. because she comes just on the dot for service and leaves straight after service.. so i didn't really get to spend personal time with her to get to know her..

one thing i realise... for so long (about a year now)... i don't know her AT ALL...

come youth leaders!! we ineed to get to know our youths!!!

i took a stroll with her around her neighbourhood coz her house was too crowded with people..

she began telling me about her school being a gangster school.. eveyone doesn't doo their homework... pontans school... smokes just outside school.. goes against school rules.. girls roll up their skirts to look less nerdy.. have multiple piercings on their bodies.. peirce their tongue with thumbtacks ... (ok i must share about this... friends... u may hear this.. and get appalled.. but.. you will never know if someone around you and is going through the exact situation right NOW.. what are you going to do about it??? sit down and kiss your ASS!!!!!?????? come on... i dun mean to be mean and vulgar but... don't you think we ought to do something about it???!! i knew a colleague who had multiple body piercings too and i never knew that i would have a youth who is exposed to these too...)

anyway.. not only that... much more horrid stuff than i can ever imagine..

From young she would get beaten everytime something went wrong. Not only would her mum use a cane... her mum would grab every single thing that can be grabbed to hit her... such as a wire, a charger or even a belt.. now sometimes when she gets beaten.. she doesn't even feel the physical pain anymore.. she's immuned...

Her school work isn't looking gd... she's not participating in her extra curricular activities bcoz she doesn't feel like it... she's not doing her homework bcoz she's too tired and lazy...

Dear Lord, i'm not a trained counsellor or any person who is qualified to have help her.. but here am i Lord, send me. If you can Lord, make me a vessel for your use if you can Lord.. i really wanto help.. if i don't help.. i dunoe anyone else who will... Lord... please teach me.. equip me... walk beside me.. i give my life to you for your use Lord...